What's wrong? Nothing.

It's just few days apart.

And this is where it ends up.


You don't wanna talk? Or you're sick?
Fine. Just don't talk then.
I don't know what's your excuse.
You don't even say, how would you expect me to know.



At least I still bothered to reply, even if it was very late.
Even if I was not very concentrated, as I was in my OG activities.
At least I showed I bothered to reply, to make an effort.


But nevermind.
I HAVE TO understand you.
I can only be patient.
Just take things as they come.
Just take pain as it attacks.
Just take the troubles as it pierces through my mental wall.



NEVERMIND.
IT IS OKAY.
I MUST BE PATIENT.
EVERYTHING HAS ITS REASON.





Anyway..
Just my thinking or what, probably is just my thinking.
There's this girl from my OG group, which started talking to me after a while.


After we played a game where we both as a pair had to deliver a ball stuck in between our foreheads and our hands each on our shoulders,
Somehow..I dunno, she just seemed to have this interest in me.
After the wet games were over,
Keziah and Haoqin were talking on their own.
I was not far from them, she, Joyce, wasn't too.
I caught her staring at me a few times.
And she seemed to be slowly, gradually, edging towards me.
And I wanted to talk as well, but only few words came out ==


During next game,
The OG played a game where we needed to slap without screaming OUCH or something like that.
I was next to her.
I slapped her slowly, but the marks were still there.
And she took the liberty of taking revenge on my leg. ==
And after the game, I checked on her about it, and apologised.
She just gave this sarcastic attitude as if she was angry.
I knew she wasn't.


Well.
THAT WAS JUST MY WISHFUL THINKING.
Her interest may be nothing more than a friendly attitude after all.
Haha normally when I think like this, nothing is gonna happen.


So yea, My Current One is still safe for now =)
Changing my feeling? Ain't gonna happen.











P.S. I don't know why I still sacrifice so much for you, when I don't even see any effort from you.... And you said long-distance requires effort from both sides... NEVERMIND! xD








P.S No. 2.


I don't wanna get in touch with newer ones, for you.
I don't wanna be involved much with them, for you.
I don't ever wanna give them much space in my mind, for you.
I don't ever wanna try getting closer to them, for you.
All these, for you.
I've not done what you asked me not to.

But,
Have you stopped getting in touch with SOMEONE, for me?
Have you stopped getting involved with SOMEONE, for me?
Have you tried not to give SOMEONE much space in your mind, for me?
Have you tried not to get closer to SOMEONE, for me?
All these, never for me.
You've done all the things I don't wish you to.

You wish for me to always be there, while you're not always so for me.
You ask me not to leave, yet you possess the risk of leaving me anytime for SOMEONE.
You hope that my feelings stay to one and only you, yet your feelings for me is just a dividend of your feelings for SOMEONE.
You've received all my best, while all I get is never a complete piece.
You've been always my first, when I'm actually your second.






Nevermind.
Good night, bloggie.