CNY eve sama2 Yeri

Hari ini ialah hari raya malam imlek...
Gw ga kemana2 tu, cuma nemenin Yeri cari hadiah buat sahabat gw Liaowei...
Pdhl td kita dah ketemu barang yg kyk bantal yg isinya pasir gitu..tp kok ga ad yg baru..dah last stock..haiz...cape dehhh...
Trus ya balik dr orchard ke toa payoh, td nya mo ke greja..it was 5.15pm..dan gw br inget kalo hr ini gerejanya mulai jam 5pm utk hr ini! bukan yg kayak biasa jam 6! arghhh gw lupa pula..yeri jg kaget -w-..gw jd ga enak sama dia..pdhl dia kan mo ke greja..haiz..maaf Tuhan T.T

Abis itu ya kita ngobrol2 aja...duduk di tangga deket mrt...

Oh, man, we really talked a lot of things after so long...It felt so nice talking to her...We shared a lot of stuffs...And i oso told her abt my feelings for Huyen...Arghh ==..Anyway, i believe she can keep my secret..hehe...

A lot of stuffs we talked abt tat I couldnt say it here..her secret u know..haha...

Anyway, I am glad I am back to myself again...the talkative version of Kevin, not the emo one..hehe...


Then I went to eat at KFC, but Yeri said she wasnt hungry so she nv ate ==...
Then wad else, of course we went home... =D

OH MY, I FELT SO HAPPY AFTER SHARING STUFFS WITH HER...AAAAA...HARI YG INDAH..LALALA..I AM GLAD DIA NGANGGAP GW SBG TEMEN BAEK DIA ^^

Time asks to wait, or asks to find some others?

Sometimes is it better to wait or to find other person to love?

A side may say:
*better to find others...if u are hurt, dun mourn over her, juz move on...life is too short to be mournful of...
*It wont be as if she is the only one left in this world...come on, so many girls out there...
*there will be someone who can cure ur heart, one day...

BUT, what if u keep failing and getting hurt, or why is there still cases of ppl without couple?

The other side may say:
*wait for her...dun give up..Good things come to those who are waiting patiently =)
*Show her u are different from those players out there..show tat u are faithful by waiting...
*By waiting means that u have more chances to prove ur feelings for her ;)

Hmm..but wad if u will end up loving someone forever but wad if the other person nv loves u?

Wait2, this wont happen to me surely...I am waiting for my chances with HER...but tat would be as long as I still feel tat she is da one...

If one day another girl cures my heart, then I know i cant wait for her anymore =)

But if there is no other person to cure my heart, tat means i will love her forever..=)

Anyway, is being considered Good Friend indicates that she has a thing for me? =\
Ms. Kaur said tat shows Huyen considers me as someone who can understand her a lot lot...but still, wad she feels abt me wont be da same as wad I feel abt her, right? My feeling goes to a more romantic genre while hers I believe is juz frens..[and yes, FRIENDS only...]

So, I'll wait, right? ;) Juz like San is waiting for Cee, I guess I have to wait as well...like he said, once again, GOOD THINGS COME TO THOSE WHO WAITS ;D

Finally said it...

The secrets I have kept for so long to my brothers...
The feelings I have for Her...
I finally managed to reveal it to Alan first , then San, and the most recent one is Liao wei...
Only Mars left...

I dunno why, I feel the hardest to say it out to him...
Is it because he is da closest to Her?

I will say it, definitely...must let him know...
Before Valentine's Day...
So I can give chocolate to Her without anyone thinking that I kept something from them or betraying them ;)

I feel better after revealing this already...

Anyway, from today onwards I will take things more positively than I was...
I have so much to be thankful for...
No matter how Huyen will treat me, I will juz continue striving for her happiness...
Another example is San...
His family and him arent in a very gd relationship...
they arent close...His parents scold him a lot...San often talks or shouts back...
They quarrelled a lot...
Today I heard that their parents blamed his grandma for bringing him up the wrong way..
The last I heard today, his grandma and him were threatened by their parents that they will be kicked out of house...
I should call him now, ask if he is ok...

Cya soon, my bloggie...

True love needs no return?

We have heard a lot everywhere about this statement:

"True Love Demands No Return"

Is it a truth, a fact, or a mere bullshit myth?
Coz in movies, it does happen...

But in real life? No, not much I have heard..Worse still, I've yet to witness any...

Nowadays one person loves another juz bcoz they like something abt him/her, or that they can earn something from it. Normally once they have of nth to gain from the people they love, they will leave them.
If u think it was immoral, there are others who even treat love as "games"...they play the feelings of the people who love them for real...

Believe me, this cruel stuffs happen...

Even sometimes, I wonder if my feelings for HER is juz for my own gain or juz bcoz I like something abt her...
Coz I'm feeling a pain instead of joy, which is usually the feeling u have when in love...

Am I juz wanting her to be mine? Or I really dont mind if she is with someone else? let's figure it all out...

What have I done for her? Other than being a listening ear and someone who seems to always be "there" for her, I nv think I have done more....
Well, it spends quite an amount of my time and effort juz to be there and keeping all my promises to her and stuffs...

Was she there for me always? No, dont really think so...
Was she a good listening ear? Yup, One of a kind =)
Has she ever spared a thought on my feeling towards? I dun really know, but it seems to me that she has never =)
Have I ever caught her so-called 'attention' [u know wad i mean]? Haha...Guess not, guess not :)
I am no one but a mere-close frens...

And ya know, this seems to emphasise that fact that I can't go further with girls than being juz a "close fren" xD

Hopeless eh?

Anw, back to topic ==
Feeling painful? Yep, definitely...
Have I ever wished I could be with her? I guess so...
Am I basically asking her return for my love? Hmm? Nope, dun think so...I've loved her for quite some time and still loving =)
What if she would never wanna be with u? Hmm then tats too bad, I shld say...And actually I dun need to be with her to love her =D

Anw, I juz read from a website I came across recently, that once a girl states she juz wanna be frens, it will stay this way forever...Soul-piercing news huh? :D


Conclusion is still da same every day...
It is very painful...
But who says I'm gonna stop loving her?? ;) *winks*

Little attention, loving secretly

Maybe I shld juz love her secretly afterall
I have tried my best, and still couldnt get her attention a little bit...

And maybe loving in secret suits me more,
coz in the meantime I can try to control my feelings, so tat it doesnt show up from outside...



Oh, and I have one more issue in mind
How am I gonna give a chocolate to her on valentine's day?

Coz it seems tat I currently cant give it in front of anyone like last year; nobody in my class knows i like her....
And giving her secretly is almost impossible...
She is almost never alone
And SOMEONE juz keeps talking to her whenever possible, leaving me almost no chance....
They talk in a very funny language oso...
And whenever I talk something with her, he seems like wanna know all the details ==
Which is why I cant talk to her much in real life, coz what we two talk in yahoo are things tat she doesnt talk with others ==

Ok, I'll try to figure out a way to give her...

But what if I have to tell THEM sooner or later?
.....

First post, yet again

Ok, so I've decided to set up a private place for my own feelings here. It feels uncomfortable not spitting all my heart out sometimes and yet I cant bring myself to say it all out in my other public blog...So yeah, may this be a solution....

For my first post here I shall just write whom my feelings are for and a little bit abt it...

A person with initial P.K.H...=)
I myself didnt know why I fell for her so much...
She alr has a partner
And many times I have told myself that someone who is good towards u are nt necessarily suitable to fall in love in...

Yet I am loving her a lot, lot....
During holidays the feelings did fade away for some moments, but I strongly believe it was because I lost contact with her for a few weeks...

The feeling then caught up with me again when school started...
I juz couldnt get over her...
None of my classmate knows, my bros dun have an idea abt it at all...

Well, let's make an exception...
She herself knows abt my feeling

But wad can i say...
Sometimes I thought I saw a glimpse of hope,
She really behaves like I kinda a very important person frequently
But on other times she acts as if I am juz a gd fren and tats it...

[Well, Kev, a good fren can be a very important person for her,right?]

NO, NO U DUMBASS...u know wad i mean by "a very important person" ==' dont act as if u are an idiot, ok?

[OTHER GIRLS ARE ALL AROUND U FOOL! Try and find some other girls, dun get heartbroken]

Speaking of that, sometimes I would think other girls treated me better...
But nope man...tat wasnt the truth, I thought like that coz I wanted to find someone new =\
I guess I cant...for now, at least...haha

One more thing, I am NOT heartbroken....

In indonesia, a recently popular band really had some songs which REALLY [i meant it] suit my feeling and resemble what my heart was feeling...

First song is abt a guy whose lover left her for another man...and still he wanted her to know that he still misses her a lot...[oh, i juz want her to know that i am missing her like crazy 24 hrs =D]

Second song is abt a guy whose lover is attached, and in the end this guy became the so-called Third Person in their relationship...he then wants her to juz forget him and go back to the lover coz he is actually nothing compared to the other guy =) [juz like me huh? seriously I dont expect to get further with her than now...anw coz i am nth compared to her soulmate]

Third song is abt a guy whose lover has never responded to his feelings, no matter how hard he tries or how much effort he puts in...his heart just finally feels tired and decides to stop loving her [i admit that my heart is tired...but i dont feel that my feelings shld end here..no, not now =))]

Wow, didnt realise I have written this long for my first post only, guess shld stop now...and continue next time =P