Didn't really notice you at first during the audition of Rock Night few months ago.
Not even after rehearsals.
Only after last week you revealed that we actually stayed in same estate.
That I started to recognise more of you.
All of NJPA, and even me, surprisingly, thought that you were interested in me.
And I thought I could try out getting interested in you too, for the fun of it.
But this wasn't what I expected.
My interest actually grew uncontrollably.
And on the day of your performance, and my backstage job, Rock Night 2010,
I encountered the decisive moment yet again.
Whether I should find a chance to get your number.
My classmate even gave me his full support.
But then,
I figured out that she was already attached.
Which means, a big No for me.
No, I'm not gonna chase someone already attached, still need to recover from the shock of previous experience doing the same thing :)
Things don't make it better that her brother is a gangster.
It will be troublesome.
And I shoo-ed off the idea of getting her number.
It's not fated again for me.
And again, I guess I'm reading too much into the situation.
Well I could kinda expect that.
A gorgeous girl like you, who wouldn't expect that you have a guy already?
What I didn't expect was me.
The feeling grew kinda strong.
Of course it's nowhere near love, no.
But enough to get myself high and thinking about it the whole day.
How long has it been since I last caught myself daydreaming about someone's smiling at me and getting happy all of a sudden?
So yeah, it's not for me again.
It's not my turn.
I only need to wait for this feeling to gradually fades.
Oh I'm sure it will.
We'll never meet again anyway.
It was a silent goodbye for me.
One thing I learnt, though.
I thought she (not this one) was the only one I can ever find suitable for me.
If I could meet someone else who can give me such strong feeling,
Coupled with my determination to burn out all the feeling of soulmate I ever experienced,
It's not gonna be impossible for someone out there to complete a missing piece of me.
What I need to do, is just to wait.
See what I can get.
No rush, no pressure.
