"I'm not giving you up 'till my last ounce of strength."



"*my post on SATURDAY, JULY 18, 2009*"



"Leaving her would be a torture."




"I'm the 3rd party. The one who doesn't deserve it. I'll have to leave afterall."



"As long as she doesn't break up and choose between one of you, this is as far as you go. In the end, all your blood and tears will go to vain again. It'll only kill both of you. You'll be abandoned in the end!"




These are voices that echo through my head all the time.



Getting over you isn't as easy as we predicted it to be.



"According to Mirror-breaking Test, I could get over something like this within days."





Truth is, even after a few days without you and only with my family and friends.
The feeling, the thoughts, the pain have not left at all.
They stay within, torturing day and night.



And when I thought it was kinda easy,
It turned out that it is not.



Even as I pretend to move on.
Even as I pretend there are other 'fishes in the sea'
Even as I pretend that this is a nightmare, and when I wake up tomorrow, it's a brand new day.
Even as I pretend that you're not the one.
Even as I pretend that you don't exist in my life.




This feeling really knows how to squeeze the crap out of my life.