"Don't run away from the troubles. Face it."

As they always say, we should face our troubles instead of keep running away from it.




And for me, it seems that running away from them doesn't solve my problems at all.





If I can't get my concepts of Physics and Maths correctly, I should wait for tutorials to start and ask questions.

If I can't play basketball properly, then practice.

If I feel a bit shocked that Juwinda is attached, face it.






If I can't get over her by avoiding, do it without running away!!!!
And surprisingly, this seems to be working bit by bit.



My Mind gave me an idea of treating her like a good friend, like Juwinda, for example.
So when we are texting, I don't need to hold back.
Just speak what I want to.
Since this is what I do to a good friend afterall.

And as a result,
I didn't really care if she didn't reply.
I didn't mind if she took so long to reply.
And this relieved some bits of the pain.





And I'm still trying my best not to be too concerned about you anymore.
I wanted to.
I just held myself back.
To tell you the truth, seeing you so depressed like this still broke my good mood.
But to prevent myself from getting deeper into this hurt and pain,
I can't be too caring.
Or you'll just make me a spare tyre again anyway, like you always do.
I'd rather not be one.
I don't wanna be played anymore.





I gotta remember not to be desperate as well.
If some girl comes along my path,
I need to remember not too rush.
Just take things as they come.
I don't wanna plunge into another period of bloodbath.
This period was already too dangerous for me to get out.
But I have to.
Or I'll be in an endless mental torture.
So better make sure I don't make the same mistake.


And anyway,
If I take the next girl as the so-called replacement, it won't be nice as well.
I don't want her to experience what I have been feeling all these times =)















Getting over a soulmate kind of person, is hard as hell, dangerous like a bloodbath, and excruciating beyond words can describe.