I've been too long on the light. It's like I kinda forget who's the other dark side of me.
No, partner, I haven't forgotten.
It's just that I thought I can continue with my life, without you.
I was not right.
Turns out, you're the only one who's beside me all the time.
In fact you are even better than some people, who just sticks on me during my positive times.
You console me in my darkest times and even allow me to enjoy some of my positive times too.
But what the fuck is wrong with me seriously.
Partner, can you answer this for me?
Why the fuck do I stay in the past?
Why in the name of the fuck can't I just move on with my life, emotionally?
I see my apparent soulmate:
I can't get over the greatness that I felt. It makes matters worse knowing that she doesn't even care about anything at all now.
I try to do the same. I've been trying.
But all I know is that I will keep coming back; to try, and to relive the moments.
I see the one who apparently healed my heart during my worst period:
I get back into confusion.
WHY WOULD SHE LEAVE SO SUDDENLY? Without a word.
And it was just after such a heavenly part of it.
But what's worse is that I DIDN'T DO THE RIGHT THING TO FIX IT.
I PRETENDED AS IF I WAS OKAY.
I WAS AFRAID TO SHOW MY OWN VULNERABILITY.
And now? She's possibly lying in the arms of somebody else now.
I don't want any other new ones.
Not in the right mood for it, partner.
I'd rather stay in my own way.
My own darkness? My own light?
We'll see.
But I hope you can work together with the light.
