One more note.

This time, on the wee hours of 31/12/2009



Talking to liao wei have made me more resolute in my doubts about leaving singapore for australia.


He said:"is she more important or your future is?"

Of course for now it seems that she is more important.

But looking further ahead, my future is.

But.
She IS equally important.

Isnt a piece of your soul important?
Well she is a big part of my soul.
And the most important part as well.


Lying awake at night like this, i cant help thinking abt you.
I always do.


And i realise how much a burden it would be for me to be apart from you.
I dunno about you, but i think it's not gonna be much of a problem.
You are so used of not seeing me anyway.

Me? I should have got used to not seeing you.
But there's this bleeding inside of me that just refuse to clot.


Dear bloggie, i have to let her know sooner or later.

The thing is, i cant bear to say good bye.

So childish.
This is so one sided.

Anyway i have alr expected what she would do.
Probably just get shocked a bit. Then encouraged me to go there. And then good luck. And then bye2.

Simple. While i'll be at a loss of words.
And probably crying.
To top it all, my unstoppable bleeding would have a new company.
More, and stronger bleedings will come.








I still dunno how to survive mentally afterwards.