The dwelling of the past, and the challenges on ahead.

In Indonesia now, my hometown.
After a brief 1 hour plus flight from Singapore yesterday.



As I was heading towards the airport in a taxi, we passed by a few roads and streets;
Places that hold memories of mine.


Bugis area
*Bugis Junction; The fun we brothers had. A place we used to frequent.
*Iluma; Alan, Halim, and me. Nothing to do. Went there when everybody else refused to join me after I asked.
*Along Victoria Street; Liaowei and me, walking along there. Blasting our hearts out. Talking abt life, and love.
*Finally, National Library; Mars, Alan, San, me were studying there. Not exactly studying though. Alan and me brought our laptops there. All the pleasures of making noises in the library, sitting on the floor.



Toa Payoh
I could only remember the day we all drank vodka, on the last day of O Level Exam.
I spotted her at Mr. Bean.
Walked along few shops and Toa Payoh Central street, to San's house.
12th storey, Sky Garden. That was where we had our drink.
Last but not least, a heavenly-happy moment in time with her.


Balestier
*BBQ at Archie's house, AVA Tower. Swimming, laughing away, like there's no worry at all.
*Balestier Student's Hostel. Her place-of-stay.
*Walking area between Balestier and Toa Payoh. Behind that hostel; where I sent her home for the first time.
*The canal behind her hostel. Again, a place where I was in a moment in time of happiness; Spending afternoon, talking away with her.



Changi Airport
The place where I first stepped onto Singapore for my journey of studying here.






What have happened, have happened.
These cannot be repeated for real. It can only be rewind, replayed in our virtual Memory Player, our brain and heart.
We can only relive those moments in there.


Instead, the future is what's gonna come.
Preparing for it is what I gotta do now.


Talking about Junior College,
I was thinking if I could enter Hwa Chong, I would.
But again, Mom suggested not to enroll in a school where supranatural brains are abound, I'll be a small fry, unnoticed.
If I am in a normal JC, like National, I'd be noticed more easily.
But it's not as if I can't excel in Hwa Chong, I have to try.
But it's not very likely...
But it's not as if your results can reach there. So many people get disappointed in their results even though they were very optimistic.
But..
But...

So many 'but's.

Urghhh...

My head's gonna explode.
Damn.





Ok, relax.
Enjoy the moment now.





I'll try to.






Meanwhile, another challenge arises.

A communication barrier between us now.
With my indo handphone number, I can't contact her vietnamese number. Can't send sms, can't receive one from her either.
I'll try to call tonight, see if it works. But I doubt it will -.-
What the hell man.

I can send to Indo number, I can do so to Singapore number too.
Why not hers.
It must be Destiny's test.
Testing on my ability to keep my feeling.
A test for us.

I don't wanna care anymore.
We can still keep in touch online.
If this is really a test,
It's up to Destiny and Fate if they wanna try bringing me down.
I'm not going down.


We'll [Or should it be "I'll"?] prove it.