Something I don't know, and the one I know.

Yesterday you told me you had a sudden relapse in your mood.

We were webcam-ing then, you were laughing non-stop happily.


And few minutes later you cried.


I thought you could feel better after crying, but even you said you didn't know what happened to yourself either.


I realised then that you had so much thoughts, feelings within you.
So much that you can't even make sense of all of them.
You even say you don't even know the meaning of 'letting out your feeling'.
When all along I thought you found your 'breathing space' within me.



I don't know how you will get better by going out tonight. I just hope you will.
I don't know how to make you feel better either.



But I know for sure,
That my mood for today would be as foul as a dead body.
'Cause I feel so useless,
and strangely, helpless.