Another note from my phone.

On the last hour of 2nd of November 2011,


I finally got over the past. Completely. Truly. All of it.
None of it seems to be holding me back any more.
You are my dream come true.



I've never felt this strong before.
I've never felt so secure.
I've never felt so much support before.
I've never felt so right.
Never felt so blissful.
And certainly,
I've never cried for someone before. Not like this.


When I left your place tonight,
I had this overwhelming sense of palpable loss.
Yes, no matter how mushy this would sound,
It's like I left a part of me behind.
True, these three nights I spent together with you, are the ones that I would never forget.

Those moments are not even engraved on my heart.
Because my heart plays a part in it.
You are in it.
Your name isn't imprinted on my heart.
It's in my heart.


And then,
You showed me a YouTube video.
Never Be Replaced by 1st Lady.
And although I've heard this song many years before I even found you,
Suddenly this song becomes what I would say Our Song.
Because no matter what,
The next time I'm hearing that, you'll always be the one I'd associate this song with.

And then,
Tears just suddenly welled up, and they flowed so freely like I've never cried before.
But of course, I've never cried for someone before, especially not for a girl.
Truth to be told, bloggie,
Before this I used to believe that crying for a girl is silly.
Now I'm doing that silly thing.
But I don't feel silly, not in the slightest bit.
I feel how much you mean to me.
I feel how important you are to me.
That if I would ever lose you, I'd be devastated beyond my own comprehension.




I don't know what to say.
Maybe I really never had a dream come true.
'Till the day I found you.



All I know now is,
I can declare for my own,
With my utmost conviction,

That I'm in your heart,
And you're in mine.
Though the journey ahead will be hard,
I know we'll be fine.
We'll weather this storm together.

"It's us against the world."
Yes, I have not forgotten about that, at all.




I probably have never said this more confidently and surely before:


Dear Rieka Erina,
I Love You.
:)