DaY BY dAy

Days passed by just like that

How I miss spending time with you online everyday [well, almost everday...]
Those days when i had a good talk with u
Those days when i could see u , even from the webcam only
Those days I felt like i was in heaven , talking to an angel
Those days when I felt like the world only belonged to just the 2 of us
Those days when distance didnt matter to us, coz i know we would always be near....

Those days when I really saw u as the one for me =)


[Well, not that i dont anymore =P]


Oh, those days that had passed, and had taken for granted....

I understand what's the freaking problem now


U need to focus when u do ur work

Yeah, i understand


So tats why u dont wanna be online

So thats why u dont wanna reply my message so much

So thats why u dont wanna talk to me

because I am such a distraction for u, right? =)



I feel like i have been propelling myself against a wall that just wont budge
I hit the wall till I ache and bleed, and yet there seemed to be no scratch on the wall

I waited for u every single freaking day
And yet I dont plan to stop
haha



Yeah, i aint giving up, girl
I wont back away
I'll continue striving forward, even if u dun give a fuck about me anymore

Coz if i still see hope and as long as u dont give me the word 'get the hell out of my life' straight from your own mouth,
i'd rather die, so i wont run




U said i enjoy the company of other people better than urs
yeah, i admit i laugh a lot with them
but u know what? coz i talk nonsense with many of them
Tats why i laugh, they laugh, we laugh
and most importantly, they are just FRIENDS

With u, it s a different case
I mean every word i say to u
though i admit, i still joke with u sometimes
but u see, i dont wanna be full-of-nonsense person whenever i am with u


And yet, u were implying that i enjoyed the company of other girls
I can only draw one conclusion from here,


You want me to make u laugh all the time, to be full of jokes and nonsense when i am with you...and last but not least, u only want me to remain as ur FRIEND. Nothing more, nothing less.
And you dont really want me to be so serious and mean everything i said , right? =)


Now why do i say that?

1). you want me to laugh with u and make u laugh all the time
why? cos u said i enjoyed with others. and i laugh a lot with people that u thought i always enjoy with. I wanna prove to u that i'd rather be with u than with anyone else in this world right now =)

2). You want me to be full of jokes and nonsense
Why? Cos when i am with u, i mean everything i said. and yet u say i enjoy with others when with them, i only joke around most of the time =)

3). U only want to be a FRIEND of mine, nth more and nth less
why? i laugh with my frens, and i joke with them, and i am always not so loud and playful when i am with u. This is how i treat someone special to me. I dont wanna be just a person who only knows how to crack jokes and be loud. I wanna show how much i care.
U dont want me to be this way right?
SO yeah, i know u nv want me to be more than ur fren afterall right? =)



Prove me wrong, if i am really wrong here.
=)
i'd be so glad if u could....




But most probably u would be TOO TIRED and TOO BUSY to even read my posts, let alone proving me something which i think wrongly about....
Am i right? =)






P.S. That shatters my heart into millions of highly-irreparable pieces =)