Oh yes..oh no,,,

Dear bloggie,
I have a lot of stuff to talk to u abt.

I have been so busy lately. My life was very hectic. Lotsa homework n tasks to b completed. And yet, less time to do that...
I feel heavily fatigued everyday. In fact, I would already faint if not for her..

Guess whO? Yes, thats her. =)

She has been so called 'with me' for most of the time. Not as in we were together for most of the time in real life. Bt at least we keep in touch virtually. Yea u know wad I mean...hahaha...

And the seemingly out-of-nowhere 3 words sms of 'i miss u' was like puzzling me but tats not the important part. It was bcoz after I read tat message after my nap on such an exhausting day, I felt like I had juz received a new surge of strength inside me which help me to go on...

And da next few days . Well, juz talked most of da time. Both in sch and virtually. Haha. May nt be a big deal for some ppl, even for her. But it means a lot to me =)

Oh, and yeah, she told me that more people are getting aware of our status. [almost whole class..some of them even think FURTHER than they shld be suspicious about ==']
Ah nvm...if she doesnt care, it's nt a problem for me anymore...=D

Anw she looks cheery recently. Dunno if tats real, but i hope she can be like this, every day. FOR REAL....

I am certainly grateful towards her care and concern for me. But I wonder what is going on in her mind abt me =|


OK, SECOND ISSUE ==

Just when I thought she was cheery recently, her moods change drastically again over weekend.
this always happens every saturday...
And yes, with her boyfee....==

Ok, I dun really know how to make her feel better....
I admit I am such a noob ==
And I've realised that no matter how much effort I put in, or how much I can make her happy...
That wont last long.
And that short-lived moments I created were nt impacting her as much as things that happened during her Saturday...
Haiz...
Am I so insignificant?
I guess so...
=)

And if I thought that what I did was my best....
I keep thinking, "what if my best wasnt enough?"
What if my best is INSIGNIFICANT for someone?

Haha...
I am juz an idiot...
Have I been lured to a lovesick hole?

Idiot
Dumb
Noob
Rubbish
Trash
Failure
An insignificant existence =)

Yep, tats me ,bloggie...

Bloggie, if only u can talk, I would beg u to scold me with all the synonym words for "idiot"

HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA...