Hate [NOT] that I love YOU =( =) LOL

By loving you, I feel like there is a rose with spikes binding my heart.

It sometimes gives me happiness, while on some other times the thorns were trying to crush my heart out =.=

I am feeling happy with these feelings.
I alr told myself many, many times.
My love, for now, is unconditional..
Which needs no return..

And quite true, i really dont demand for anything to repay...
I guess my feelings for her was still same as ever...
[well, maybe increased a lot after Valentine's Day xD]

Then my dear bloggie, can u explain why I am feeling painful so many times?
...
When she mentions abt her beloved guy and especially when she told me abt bad times with him....
...
WHAT THE HELL

Dun care ur painful "spikes", juz focus urself on the "Rose" and the beautiful things =)
ONE more thing, never treat her bad...;)


2nd issue.....

After watching Oh Baby today...
I guess some ppl do wear masks , while hiding their true self behind...
Isnt this the art of BACKSTABBING?

Oh damn damn damn
Why do I keep worrying abt my brothers wearing a mask?
I never wanna think of them backstabbing me or wad...
ARGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH

And that time,
I was trying to have fun...
Yeri and San were talking...
And I kinda putting in some loud jokes
She wasnt happy, dammit..

I mean wad did I do?
it's nt as if she didnt know i like to put in joke
Even if she didnt like it...cant she juz say it first-hand?
NO NEED TO BE ANGRY OUT OF SUDDEN RIGHT?

QIAN LEI OSO
DUN LIKE THEN SAY FIRST LAH
NO NEED TO SHOUT ALL CHINESE BAD WORDS RIGHT
NGEPET ANJING LO SIALAN =.=

If like this, I need to learn my lesson

Thats it, man...
I'm not gonna be so friendly to people alr...
I'll not be opening myself to juz anyone out there...
I'll wear a mask...
I'll juz be friendly for the sake of being friendly
I'll do this: "blend in, and dont trust anyone"
[thx Need For Speed Undercover, for this quotes =)]

I won't trust anyone so easily right now...
Maybe it's wrong to trust Yeri so much right now ==
Call me childish or anything people, coz i dont care...
If u all think u can read me so easily, let me tell u,
None of u understands me, so think again, faggots!!!!!!!
=.=

It's ur problem if u wanna trust me...
But I can only trust a handful of people in my life now...
The rest, none of my business.


Shit, i feel like scolding all the bad words in the world right now...=__________=

Good bye, bloggie. Till next time =) Thx for accompanying my RANDOM post of my feelings...