l told myself time and again that it was all an illusion but...

"..lend me your shoulder :))"


"Be here with me for a while.."


"after two months of holiday u cant forget? Sure u can. I even think that u alr now :("


"..someone taught me not to worry of unnecessary things when u cant do anything abt it. U must get what i mean."


"hope u can get to sleep earlier today ^^ God bless you ^^ good night"


":( be okay soon ^^"


"i understand your situation the most okay.."


"..and now both of us lose smt that is more worthy than love :))"


"U love someone and that person doesnt return your LöVE is still much happier than u LöVE her and believe she loves u as well,"


"....Letting the feelings go for me is easy, but letting the memories will be terrifying ..."


"^^ i dont know how u feel but talking like this is very nice,"


I really could see some bloody illusions again.
I think I'm again disillussioned with my own feelings.
Deja Vu, as they say.



Anw,I've learnt something new.
"Watch your words, 'cause they can either mean the world to some people, or hell to some others."
In this case, your words are painfully pleasant to feel.
Some of what u said is quite true...

It may be true that loving someone who doesnt reciprocate ur feeling [san, for example] is better than loving someone when believing that she loves u back [me].

And, I wonder what is more important than love itself?
Cause my feeling of love currently cant be compared to other feelings I had. I'd do many things, if not everything, for my own love.








But again, this is all just my illusion, I know.
What I thought u feel was probably different from the real one.
ARGHHHHH
VIN! DON'T GET DISILLUSIONED AGAIN!










But I can't help it.
This is a feeling that I thought was gone forever.
Now that I got the chance to sip some of it again,
I don't think I'm gonna just let my so-called well of life slip away again.

It'll be gone sooner or later, I know.
But the heart of mine doesnt give a damn.
It wont let go of the thing it desires the most.



Please, my heart, let go.
I can't control u. Not even with the combined effort of my mind and myself.
You're too strong in this situation.
So I'm begging u now.
Please let go of this seemingly-everlasting feeling.













Although I know it's hard as hell, I'll promise we'll work towards it together...