Why am i still going forward?

Internet's been sucky lately. And it really sucks, esp when u cant write here, bloggie...

Down with headache.... Better now, tho. Luckily it s not an h1n1 flu..haha.
She s been down with fever since few days ago...wad a coincidence huh.. - - NO i m sure it s purely coincidental - - ...

Also,

I wonder why sometimes ppl can just attract the wrong person. -,-

Like san, for example. -,-
He always attract malay girls. Well he looks like malay, although he like someone completely different frm wad we call Malay -,-

On my side,
I have always have unwanted ppl talking to me on msn. Rather, one person. Not that i hate her or wad. A lot of times i on msn to discuss homework with classmates bt she always wanna share problems abt her friends bla 3x.. Those are actually things i shld be least concerned with. -,-
Not that i dun wanna help. It wasnt the right time -,- so i will normally just reply very succintly, trying hard to disguise my annoyance.

Bt i guess it s a different thing for HER . Ok bloggie, this time u know who is this person :) someone who was important to me, very important. And still is :)

I hope she will talk to me, esp when i am not feeling very well.

The issue is she ll never be there.
She always said she s gonna be there for me. I dont care as fren or wad ok.
Truth is, how many times she fulfill her own words? I did count myself ok. Only abt a handful of times.
The rest, either neglected or it ll be in cases where 'wait till i go home then i online. I cant talk to u. Enjoying my heavenly bliss with my bf'.
No she nv said that.
Bt i am sure she meant that when i contacted her and she only cared to reply only after she go home and expected me to wait online.
Haiz.

Her reason? 'i dun want sms u while distracted. Dun wanna use 'busy' as an excuse'.
1st thing, if u are really busy, it s not excuse anymore.
2nd thing, if u dun wanna be disturbed when u are enjoying ur time with ur bf, just say so. I d rather face a painful truth rather than got cheated.

Please mind what u say my dear. Everything of it. Cause i take it seriously.
And cause i meant things i say to u. All of them.

I am always there whenever u find me.
I love u and dun give up till the day u showed me who u chose between me and him. Even then, i still have feelings for u after i decided to give up -,-
I meant it when i said my feelings are only for u, and i prove it. Dunno why sometimes u still dun believe -,-

I wonder which things u have told me that u meant for real.

And where was i?
Oh, the wrong attractions thing -,-
I hope it doesnt happen to much ppl..


Get well soon, sweetheart. If u fall sick even worse, i ll get a huge mental block. :) come back to sch soon. It soothe me just to see u and hear ur voice frm a distance :) on the other hand, it worries and pains me to see ur empty seat at the classroom.

P.s : this is just a melancholic note i wrote on my handphone last week :p