One moment of happiness = one moment of bad happenings [?]

If this is the case I'll never wanna be happy because of love anymore.

Just when I thought something good happens,
when finally something has changed,

In the end I realised it was always a hidden blade.
like u know, bloggie, Altair's hidden blade [if u play Assassin's Creed]
It goes near u, then suddenly stabs u out of nowhere.


Maybe this is how I should describe it.
I wondered why I got no response from the other side....
Then I decided not to think abt it. Maybe it wasnt my business afterall....

And then suddenly, a thing comes up....
A strange mail I have always wished to get, yet I know it could never come to me...
Why did it arrive?
I was alr quite happy. I dunno why. To other ppl [even to the normal ME], this is just nothing but very normal stuff to get. I dunno why I am so happy.
I thought jokingly "is a storm coming? How can I get this? haha. today must be my lucky day."


Actually,
I havent been getting any response today,
because apparently the princess was with the prince....

Well, actually why does an outsider like me need to know, need to feel anything?
Afterall, my feelings for the princess are forbidden, totally unacceptable.
Why do I have to feel anyway? I very well knew the princess has been with the prince, and will always be.


And then a 'storm' was raging through inside me.
I felt like, as I mentioned earlier, Altair just appeared out of nowhere and stabbed me right through my vital point, and left like nothing has happened at all.
Some master assassin u are...Did u learn from Altair? What has he taught u?
My feelings are mixed...

And then I realised, it was all like this AGAIN....
After something good [good to me, may be VERY ORDINARY to others],
something bad [in this case, the 'storm' in me] happened...


Haiz...
Why do I have to feel?
And why don't I just bring myself to stop...
Nevermind...I wont feel happy for love again.....
If it's good, I'll treat it like a mere something-good-has-happened stuff...
So I can also say something-bad-has-happened when the so-called "Altair's disciple" assassinates me again... xD