Hmm :)

Hmm you know,



At this rare free time of mine during my JC period,
I decided to blog something and before that, I schemed through my old blog posts.


Early this year,
I was in such low mentality,
Heartbroken, crushed inside, bloodbath everywhere.
It felt like the end of the world.



But who knew,
After that, and another similar experience,
I finally got to make myself frozen.
I mean, look at me now,
I don't feel any emotion towards the things that I always wish for in life;
To find myself the love of my life.


Who the fuck needs that?
Of course, once in a while, I will look around in the streets and see couples around, and wish I could be like them.
But meh, I always manage to brush it off.
My feelings is now null.
Even when a lot of my close friends now have girlfriends,
Nope, I'm not in the least bothered.
Heck, I don't need any of it.


I'm a lone wolf.
I'm a cyborg xD





Okayyyyy

I just finished looking through some photos from the past,
And of course, some precious text messages that I kept track from her.
Oh well,
It brings back the good old days.
Made me smile again.


But of course,
Even I know better that it was just like a dream.
Beautiful things that you experienced are mostly unreal.
'Cause sooner or later, you still have to wake up.
And that's when you find that reality isn't ever gonna be as good as you wish.


Well, I'm somehow numb to the pain now.
The emotion can't kill me.



I'm indifferent, unaffected. :)