A family in NJ.

Finally I found somewhere I belong.





NJ Public Address.





Today I was appointed as the Training Officer for Exco batch 10/11.




After a 3days2nights camp at school.


A camp that was fun.
A camp where we all became closer.
A camp where homework and stress didn't matter anymore.
A camp where we became a family.




And when the Exco batch 09/10 handed over to us, the new batch.
I had this sensation that somehow felt like our "parents" would abandon us.
I'm afraid of the challenges as a TO ahead,
When people look up to you for technical skills expertise,
When people expect you to be the tanker of all events,
When you have to continue the legacy of a legendary TO like DongLum.




And of course, when you have to balance with school work also.






But nonetheless.
I feel a family sensation.
Unlike basketball where I sometimes feel left out.
In PA, I never feel left out, at all.






Just after the camp, I have this "campsick" feeling, similar to "homesick" again.
Coupled with the feeling of being "abandoned" by the seniors to be on your own.







I'm happy,
And yet I feel so screwed.