Unsurprisingly, yet unbelievably true.

It's expected that I should feel this way.

Maybe should even feel on my expectation. In fact, now I don't feel as good as I expected.


But when the deja vu came,
Something which always happened time and again...
An event where I need to acquire my adoration again..
I didn't feel as how I normally responded to this type of incident.


Usually, when I try to back away, and this thing happens,
My feeling would go full force at an instant, despite the suppression I give.


But now,
Although I again tried to care and help her as much as possible,
I realised that I wasn't expecting things like how I used to do.

I treated this problem as a consultation by a mere good friend.
Without realising it, of course.


It's totally blowing my mind..



This thing,
Something which I thought was impossible to do,
Something that I thought could never happen,


Am I finally letting it all go?