Haha, i just realised something.

"Cause FRIENDS do not do things that way"

*referring to what I always do, and what I always receive in the end 

=)

Keep smiling

Hurt ..again [?]

Love hurts....

No, i dont mean that one what ppl normally say.

This is because I cared so much for love

Was this why I failed some of my exams?

Bloggie? why?

Is this why?

I hope not ==

Well, who cares. 

Dont wanna use excuses for my failures. 

Work is work. Feelings are feelings.

Never let feelings interfere your work. Period.

See ya :)

....

What am I doing?

Ah.nvm ==

Untitled

I just think of you all the time

And I do not know why.

Call me sick, call me crazy, call me childish. Whatever names you can think of.

But thats what I am now.

Sick in the mind, head, and heart

Everything. Sicko. Psychophatic.

Hahaha..somehow i feel so comical.

Why keep thinking of someone who almost NEVER think of you.

If thats incorrect, then blame me all you guys want.

'Cause you believe what your mind heart perceives.

I see it that way,

Yes, yes. Thats my fault.

Always cant see.

Always think negative.

Always think too much, too far.

Always very sick in the head.

Always do MEANINGLESS stuff.

Go and die :)

"All I know is baby I try, I try so hard to keep my love alive"

"And it's killing me , 'cause there ain't a thing I can do"

A decision?

I thought abt it

I'd better not pursue this matter

No need to chase for her

Just keep the feeling,

and our relations as of what it is now

Because I have realised and known,

that no matter how hard I pursue, you dont seem to get nearer =)

that the more I attempt, the harder I fall

that the more I put my effort in it, the harder pain and payback I am getting

that the more I try to get closer, the further that you back away

Haha.

Maybe I'll let this thing remain as what it is right now

All I need to do is be there whenever you need it, be understanding, and be quiet. haha....There literally is nothing I can ever do =)

"But in the end if I'm with you, I'll take the chance."

Hmm...

I wonder, I wonder....

Exams passing by...

So is my feeling....

I tried my best to concentrate, but u're still at the top ....

I tried not to care, since when i show it, u dun want it oso....

Maybe u need to concentrate...haha...why am i thinking so negatively...

I can see how much u struggle to try to cope...though sometimes u just cant get things into ur head.....and yeah, the feeling when u have no mood to study....

In fact i am having this mood now...I am very tired....Why am i blogging instead of studying? == Haiz....

It feels weird not communicating to u at all, very weird....

It happens too suddenly...

But i know u wanted to concentrate....

and i cant be so egoistic to talk but at the same time, disturbing u...No, i dun want to.....

Yet, i cant help feel ignored..............

Is it just my negative thinking?

Maybe u just dont wanna show anything to me? 

Or is it a fact that u dun wanna care anymore?

Argh i dunno ==

NONSENSE ends here...

No no

OH NO...

I am so NOT gonna be overwhelmed by my own emotion

HAHAHAHAHA

I AM FINE

THE EMO SIDE CANT CONTROL ME, DUDE

BRING ON THE PAIN

I AM GONNA BE FINE!

HOHOHO....

Exams is round the corner u idiot! Start revising instead of blogging ;)

SOrry for the random post of my feeling , bloggie xD

..................

AND

I 

CANT

HELP

BUT 

WAIT

Dunno how many times I have been telling that to myself

Now I am asking a new qn

1). Am I really waiting,

2). Or just running away from the truth, which is waiting someone who will never come?

I dunno=)

I WANNA know....

Know whether I am walking aimlessly or towards a destination =)

I feel I am starting to get weary

I need to believe

Is there anything I can do?

Please,

I just need to know if i am waiting pointlessly or not

Just that.

Please

I am crumbling, and I dun want to.

Please tell me I am not walking blindly on this road......

Cause if I am,

I'd rather stop myself, even if i have to kill myself to stop :)

Please =)

U may be the only one who can save me from this state....